feelin old

i'm feeling old this week. i'm not sure what it is. it may have been the dinner party on sunday that ubu and i put together. i think it was martha who put me in this mood. we had dinner monday night. while we were chatting she apologized for leaving early and said "yeah you and your old buddies!". old buddies? did she mean old as in you people are getting up there in years or forever old. hem! i just feel old and tired.