ash in a cup

recovery after a long drunken pride weekend.

i see green

because i have none of my own and i had it in the palm of my hand once... i take things at face value. right now i am chartreuse, pine, emerald and lime all over.

Sorry Ms.

I'm still getting rejection emails from places I applied to in New York.

purple knit sweater

i've been sitting on the floor in front of the computer playing with my creative finances for the last two hours. i have a two month past due bill and my credit card is over the limit. i was hit with a $75 over the limit fee a week ago. frustrated and hungry i just jumped up to find something to eat. instead i found a couple of smirnoff ice in the back of the fridge from the impromptu BBQ two weekends ago. i've opened them both up and am now about to drown myself in girly beer. don't get me wrong as frustrating as this moment feels, my spirits are high. this is just a fleeting moment in time and at least i'm not in the hell on whipple st. i live between two couches and carry a supply of clean clothes between them. i have no home yet my hearth is warm.